My problem is I will put all my time and effort into working. Then it comes around to the weekend and I have no hobby or nothing that fulfills me or my energy. Then I feel the big empty and start ruminating on how I hate myself because I don’t have any hobbies and I just feel the big empty every weekend.
Going to the gym helped with this. It gives me a hobby out of the house. Seeing the changes in my strength helps with my confidence. However whenever I feel depressed I will stop going to the gym. Then I’ll repeat the pattern 😭
I’m currently trying to psych myself up to go to the gym again. I haven’t been in so long I always dread going back. I know once I’m there it helps, it’s just hard getting there.
I completely relate to this. I am in the same pattern of starting to workout, doing well, getting depressed and then stopping. Then starting the cycle all over again. I am sending you a huge hug and a friendly push to get back on the horse... I will too! <3
I sooooooo relate to this, Mollie!!! Filling my bookshelves (and brain) are multiple books on yoga for healing trauma, "The Body Keeps the Score", "The Mindful Way Through Depression", MANY books on metta meditation and mindful self-compassion practices, books on Acceptance & Commitment Therapy, several books by Peter Levine, books on 5Rhythms dance, and on and on... I could write a book about these books, about these amazingly effective treatment modalities, and yet, I fail to practice them consistently. I did, for a time, and doing so saved my life. Then I met my partner, (now ex-partner), and started drinking heavily, and let all my self-care practices go. For 6.5 years now, I have thought about and talked about these things, yet not practiced them...but continued to stay in my head entirely, as my body began to cry out to me, with aches and pains and stiffness...even clots in my lungs, which I have no risk factors for, according to mainstream medicine, but which some studies have shown are more common in women with trauma in their history. Anyway, I SO feel you on this. And I look forward to changing, along with you!
I’m at a similar place in my journey! It is worth softening your expectations for yourself and trusting that it has unfolded in this way for a reason. In my experience, embodiment is the more difficult piece. It makes sense that I would need to start uncomfortable work with what feels more safe or natural eg. in the mind. As you said it is a slow process and part of this self care is giving ourselves permission to titrate in and our of self work to make it tolerable.
This spoke directly to me and hit me with a gut punch. I don’t eat or drink much I’m chronically dehydrated I beat myself up over my productivity level each day so I go through periods of hyper fixation that blocks out my basic needs and run me down even further I’m dealing with fibromyalgia which is correlated with autoimmune and can be triggered by intense periods of stress and/or trauma maybe that is something you can dive into (I’m new here and not sure if you have done an episode on fibro) it’s been debilitating such intense fatigue headaches and pain that is exacerbated by not enough nourishment in my body and yet I make zero changes no movement no vitamins no water no food with actual nutrients where do we go from here when knowing that we NEED to take care of ourselves and yet we don’t
Pheeeeeeew, yeah, called out multiple times in the best way possible (as one SHOULD while reading / listening to Mollie) ✨ but also, husband?? Did I miss something?? 🥹🌸 I hope I did and I wish you two all the best because here we all know: married or not, your relationship rocks! 💖🎀 thank you for being a constant source of inspiration 🌊 much love from my Lithuanian garden 🌱
My problem is I will put all my time and effort into working. Then it comes around to the weekend and I have no hobby or nothing that fulfills me or my energy. Then I feel the big empty and start ruminating on how I hate myself because I don’t have any hobbies and I just feel the big empty every weekend.
Going to the gym helped with this. It gives me a hobby out of the house. Seeing the changes in my strength helps with my confidence. However whenever I feel depressed I will stop going to the gym. Then I’ll repeat the pattern 😭
I’m currently trying to psych myself up to go to the gym again. I haven’t been in so long I always dread going back. I know once I’m there it helps, it’s just hard getting there.
I completely relate to this. I am in the same pattern of starting to workout, doing well, getting depressed and then stopping. Then starting the cycle all over again. I am sending you a huge hug and a friendly push to get back on the horse... I will too! <3
I sooooooo relate to this, Mollie!!! Filling my bookshelves (and brain) are multiple books on yoga for healing trauma, "The Body Keeps the Score", "The Mindful Way Through Depression", MANY books on metta meditation and mindful self-compassion practices, books on Acceptance & Commitment Therapy, several books by Peter Levine, books on 5Rhythms dance, and on and on... I could write a book about these books, about these amazingly effective treatment modalities, and yet, I fail to practice them consistently. I did, for a time, and doing so saved my life. Then I met my partner, (now ex-partner), and started drinking heavily, and let all my self-care practices go. For 6.5 years now, I have thought about and talked about these things, yet not practiced them...but continued to stay in my head entirely, as my body began to cry out to me, with aches and pains and stiffness...even clots in my lungs, which I have no risk factors for, according to mainstream medicine, but which some studies have shown are more common in women with trauma in their history. Anyway, I SO feel you on this. And I look forward to changing, along with you!
I’m at a similar place in my journey! It is worth softening your expectations for yourself and trusting that it has unfolded in this way for a reason. In my experience, embodiment is the more difficult piece. It makes sense that I would need to start uncomfortable work with what feels more safe or natural eg. in the mind. As you said it is a slow process and part of this self care is giving ourselves permission to titrate in and our of self work to make it tolerable.
This spoke directly to me and hit me with a gut punch. I don’t eat or drink much I’m chronically dehydrated I beat myself up over my productivity level each day so I go through periods of hyper fixation that blocks out my basic needs and run me down even further I’m dealing with fibromyalgia which is correlated with autoimmune and can be triggered by intense periods of stress and/or trauma maybe that is something you can dive into (I’m new here and not sure if you have done an episode on fibro) it’s been debilitating such intense fatigue headaches and pain that is exacerbated by not enough nourishment in my body and yet I make zero changes no movement no vitamins no water no food with actual nutrients where do we go from here when knowing that we NEED to take care of ourselves and yet we don’t
Pheeeeeeew, yeah, called out multiple times in the best way possible (as one SHOULD while reading / listening to Mollie) ✨ but also, husband?? Did I miss something?? 🥹🌸 I hope I did and I wish you two all the best because here we all know: married or not, your relationship rocks! 💖🎀 thank you for being a constant source of inspiration 🌊 much love from my Lithuanian garden 🌱