Full list of BFTB podcast bonus content
Just signed up for Premium and not sure where to start?
Listeners of my podcast Back from the Borderline have the option to sign up for my Patreon and become a Premium Submarine to unlock full episodes and hundreds of hours of bonus content.
There are two tiers available, and each one has slightly different benefits. Let’s take a little lookyloo, shall we?
PREMIUM SUBMARINE ($9/month )
Listeners on this tier receive:
✧ Full-length BFTB episodes
✧ Access to the full BFTB archive (which contains over 115+ hours of additional content)
ULTRA PREMIUM SUBMARINE ($13/month)
Listeners on this tier receive all the benefits of the classic $9/month tier but also unlock access to my private voice notes.
Once you’ve selected your tier and completed the sign-up process on Patreon, don’t forget to check out the Premium Submarine Welcome Guide, which walks you through how to add all your shiny new bonus content to your favorite podcast app.
All set up? Fabulous.
How to identify the different kinds of Premium BFTB content in your new private podcast feed.
Once you’ve become a Premium Submarine and add your new private podcast link to your favorite podcast player, you’ll see loads of episodes you didn’t have access to before.
Premium BFTB content comes in a few different flavors.
✧FULL-LENGTH EPISODES✧
Listeners tuning into the free BFTB feed will hear the first half of episodes. Near the end, the episode will fade out, and I announce that the full version is only available by signing up for premium. As a new Submarine, you’ll start to receive full episodes, with no fading out. Success. ✓
✧MY STUPID WALKS FOR MY STUPID MENTAL HEALTH✧
These fun little bonus episodes were inspired by this viral meme. Stupid Walk episodes can easily be identified in your BFTB Premium feed. Each one will start with: “PREMIUM SWSMH.”
See below:
*Note that a few of my stupid walks are baked into full episodes and have not been uploaded separately. They’ll look like this:
✧BFTB ARCHIVE EPISODES✧
A lot has changed since I started the podcast back in July 2021! My audio and production quality has gotten way better. Because of this, in March 2023, I decided to archive some of my older episodes and made them available only for Premium Submarines.
You know what that means. If you’re a Premium Submarine, you have access to every single episode I’ve ever created.
You can identify these episodes in your BFTB Premium feed by looking for content that starts with “PREMIUM ARCHIVE.”
They’ll look like this:
✧GUIDED VISUALIZATIONS & MEDITATIONS✧
Premium Submarines will unlock access to The Hero’s Journey Series. Click here to read more about it. The HJ series episodes will appear like this in your BFTB Premium feed:
Note that there are 21 episodes in total, and it’s best to start with episode one to have the best experience.
There are also a few other guided meditations you’ll have access to, and I’m adding more as time goes on. Each meditation or visualization episode will have PREMIUM before the title like this:
✧VOICE NOTES✧
Voice notes contain much more personal moments and realizations than the standard BFTB episodes and are available only for Ultra Premium Submarines (my $13/month tier).
These little mini-pods will be uploaded to Patreon throughout the week and will sync directly to your private BFTB Premium podcast feed. Each voice note will start with “VN” followed by a number (in order of release.)
They’ll look like this:
Full list of additional BFTB episodes available now for Premium Submarines on Patreon.
Want to take a quick glance at what you’ll be able to hear once you sign up? I’ve provided a breakdown below.
*Note that the links below will take you directly to Patreon. Unless you have an active Premium Submarine membership, you will not be able to access them.*
✺ The Hero’s Journey Series | episodes 1-22 (click here for a full list)
✺ BPD Splitting Series (Part 1) [very first episode of BFTB] 7/6/21
✺ BPD Splitting Series (Part 2) [listen to part one here] 7/19/21
✺ BPD Splitting Series (Part 3) [listen to part one here and part two here] 7/26/21
✺ Recovering from stigma and self-hatred after hospitalization (Courtney Cook interview Part 1) 8/8/21
✺ Stuck in the circle jerk of sadness (Courtney Cook interview part 2) [listen to part 1 here] 8/9/21
✺ "Am I the toxic borderline ex?" (Interview with Kim Youtuber Poster) 8/12/21
✺ Did Darth Vader from Star Wars have BPD? 8/13/21
✺ The secrets of BPD recovery (Melanie Goldman interview part 1) 9/4/21
✺ The secrets of BPD recovery (Melanie Goldman interview part 2) [listen to part 1 here] 9/5/21
✺ How to stop the toxic BPD relationship cycle once and for all 9/15/21
✺ The pain of BPD impulsivity (when you just can't stop yourself) 10/3/21
✺ BPD & the "Favorite Person" or "FP" Relationship (When love turns toxic) 11/3/21
✺ Why DBT can be the secret sauce of BPD recovery 12/19/21
✺ Why anyone who says that BPD is "incurable" is dead wrong (interview with Dr. Daniel Fox) 1/27/22
✺ Witches and borderline bitches (exploring sexism in psychiatry) 4/24/22
✺ How to spot the red flags of toxic and cult-like "new age" spirituality (walk + talk episode) 6/6/22
✺ What causes borderline personality disorder to develop? 7/14/22
✺ Can you test yourself for BPD and do you need a diagnosis? 7/21/22
✺ The "DEAR MAN" DBT skill (emotional IG live with Mollie) 8/22/21
✺ My Reflections on the Amber Heard Trial and BPD Connection 4/27/22
✺ Signs you lack personal boundaries [pt 2] [Listen to part 1 here] 5/17/22
✺ How trauma throws you off balance [pt 2] [Listen to part 1 here] 5/23/22
✺ "The Big Empty" and my Breakdown 5/31/22 [There is no part 1 to this episode; however, I do elaborate on topics covered in my RO-DBT / Quiet BPD episode, which can be found here.]
✺ The Dark Night of the Soul (Finding meaning in your lowest moments) 6/9/22
✺ Taking critical feedback while staying true to yourself(walk + talk) 6/16/22
✺ What to do when you have no control over your big feelings [part 2] [Listen to part 1 here] 6/23/22
✺ Understanding the root cause of the fear of abandonment [part 2] [Listen to part 1 here] 6/28/22
✺ Dealing with painful breakups and finding yourself after losing your favorite person [pt 2] [Listen to part 1 here] 7/5/22
✺ Celebrities with BPD: a deep-dive on Pete Davidson [pt 2] [Listen to part 1 here] 7/12/22
✺ Are you the "toxic one" in your relationship? (Understanding Limerence) [pt 2] [Listen to part 1 here] 7/19/22
✺ Processing the grief of visiting your childhood home 7/26/22
✺ My reaction to a YouTube interview with a girl who identifies with BPD 8/2/22
✺ Family Visits & UFOs 8/9/22
✺ "Borderline abuse recovery coach" - YouTube video reaction 8/23/23
✺ "Going Back to the Empty Well" 11/15/22
✺ Are you existing IN or OUT of your body? 11/22/22
✺ Submarines-Only Chat with Zaz + Mollie11/29/22
✺ SWSMH E01: I guess I'll just shut the fuck up
Release date: 1/10/23
Episode Description: Come and join me and my dog Cody as we venture out into the witchy woods and rant about how I’m learning how to shut the fuck up for once in my life.
✺ SWSMH E02: Hot Mess Mollie
Release date: 1/17/23
Episode Description: After one of the lovely Premium Submarines called in to talk about her perception of me having it all figured out – I thought this would be the perfect time to take a trip back in time to revisit some of my darkest moments.
✺ SWSMH E03: “Penis head beanie”
Release date: 1/24/23
Episode Description: On this week's Stupid Walk, I left Cody at home but brought my penis head beanie. Together, we'll listen to a few voicemails from the Submarines. We discuss reactions to "Hot Mess Mollie" and explore how to prevent our trust issues and paranoia from blowing our relationships up. We tie things up with a story about a stranger I met at an airport bar on my way to a friend’s wedding in London.
✺ SWSMH 04: Grinding Parental Indifference
Release date: 1/30/23
Episode Description: In this episode, I dive into insights and lessons learned from an article by medical/psychological anthropologist Rebecca Lester. We discuss Rebecca’s perspective on what is known as BPD as a "disorder of relationship, not of personality” and the connection between chronic invalidation and grinding parental indifference in the development of BPD traits.
✺ SWSMH 05: Identified with the Drama
Release date: 2/6/23
Episode Description: I discuss how I’m realizing how easy it is for me to get sucked into dramatic and neurotic thought spirals and how I’m trying to stop it. I also dive into some emails sent through by a few Premium Submarines who shared struggles and successes in their own recovery journeys. I also share a couple of trauma recovery book recommendations.
✺ SWSMH 07: Symptoms or Saviors?
Release date: 2/14/23
Episode Description: We discuss a radical re-framing of how we view our mental health "symptoms" that just might flip the script on how you see and move through your own psychological suffering.
✺ SWSMH 08: Masking my social awkwardness
Release date: 2/21/23
Episode Description: I reflect on my recent interview with Dr. Jay Watts and how my conversation with her helped me come to some new realizations - particularly around how often I have leaned on "personality masking" to combat my severe social anxiety and awkwardness.
✺ SWSMH 09: Is it time to empty your cup?
Release date: 2/28/23
Episode Description: I discuss a concept from ancient Sufi mysticism that inspired new revelations in my recovery journey - it will likely do the same for you. I tie things up by answering more Submarine voicemails and emails.
✺ SWSMH 10: Holding the tension of the opposites
Release date: 3/7/23
Episode Description: It has been a struggle for me to embrace the healthy and justified anger for the child within me who was emotionally and spiritually neglected while at the same time trying to feel understanding and compassion for my caregivers. On today’s Stupid Walk ™, we’ll discuss “holding the tension of the opposites” and how this concept is helping me find a middle ground. I my exploration can help you, too.
Starting in March 2023, SWSMH episodes were combined with the BFTB main feed episodes.
✺ SWSMH 11: Overcoming Black and White Thinking: The Painful Truth About Splitting (+ SWSMH 11)
Release date: 3/13/23
Time Stamp: 1:27:49 (this is when the SWSMH episode starts)
Episode Description: I’ll be discussing some epiphanies I’ve had this week when it comes to feeling constantly overwhelmed, how I realized this is a behavior of my mother’s that I’m repeating, and what I’m doing to overcome it. Later on, I’ll sit down to respond to a few Submarine voicemails. First, we hear from Natalie, who is struggling with managing her emotional reactivity and shame spirals. Next, we dive into the world of Isabella – her parents just threw away a bunch of important and personal items from her room. We finish off with an email from Madison, who is trying her best to navigate a new relationship with someone who might actually be a great partner for her, but she’s trying her best to figure out how not to sabotage things.
✺ SWSMH 12: When your diagnosis becomes a weapon in the hands of people who claim to love you most (+ SWSMH 12)
Release date: 3/20/23
Time Stamp: 44:06 (this is when the SWSMH episode starts)
Episode Description: We discuss unblocking our inner creativity and whether or not we’ve acted like “crazymakers.” Later in the episode, I take voicemails from Gia (toxic and codependent friendships), Darren (ghosting), and an anonymous submarine (autoimmune issues and the gut-brain connection.)
✺ SWSMH 13: Toxic friendships emotional reactivity (+ SWSMH 13)
Release date: 3/25/23
Time Stamp: 58:00 (this is when the SWSMH episode starts)
Episode Description: We discuss the importance of taking time to rest and release your grief. I also share an exciting announcement in the life of Zaz and me! Later in the episode, I dive into an email from Lydia on dealing with long-distance relationships and a voicemail from David about using food as self-harm.
It really is, isn’t it? ^
The good news is that you have all the time in the world to work your way through it all once you’ve become a part of the Premium Submarine family.
Happy listening.
𓆩ᥫ᭡𓆪 Molls
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